Feeling ingone

I really wished that i could just have money to do what i want but no i get no its for the house or my garge but hey he can spend money on himself but when i try i get the fucking cold shoulder im at the point where i just want to get my own money but im trying with my. all i really gotten is my hair cut and and two bottles of foundation and got to eat out and damn its very hard with a money grubbing man who doesnt want to spend anything and its really pissing me off but hey he wants his stuff piss off to me nope