Feeling ingone

I really wished that i could just have money to do what i want but no i get no its for the house or my garge but hey he can spend money on himself but when i try i get the fucking cold shoulder im at the point where i just want to get my own money but im trying with my. all i really gotten is my hair cut and and two bottles of foundation and got to eat out and damn its very hard with a money grubbing man who doesnt want to spend anything and its really pissing me off but hey he wants his stuff piss off to me nope

Great day today

Well today is going pretty good so me and my hubby went and had our taxes done and lets just say its going to be a very nice shopping trip for me and my family as well as going on a family trip to somewhere other than here. But on the sad news my hubby oldest son has to pay in this year which really sucks but we are going to take care of him too. I can't wait until i get mine and do some damage to that money and yes im going to get some makeup and clothes as well as household and other items for not only me but my kids as well and we are going to enjoy it while we do it. hell to the yeah bring it on and the waiting sucks but hey i will be okay.

Mad as hell

For the past three days we have been put through hell and they keep coming over and making everything worst we are at our breaking point and im done with living here and just really want to move and get the hell out of here and to put things even worse his own dad is selling his house next door and moving and putting a trailer on the other protery for another guy not even his son damn i mean why would you do that he is your son. We gave him s piano and now he wants to give it back to us and i don't want it and don't need it. Im just at mt my end and need some away time with my family. So what would you i need some help.

What a Fucking day

I guess today was going good until after dinner then i get yelled at for making my own laundry soap and then i get yelled at for some of the dust to get into the unopen drink box wtf is matter im just trying to get me some laundry soap to where we can have clean clothes to where and shit im the one who bought the damn drinks if i choose to drop stuff in there i will so what the fuck does it matter to you anyway. Im just trying to make everyone not so pissed i guess that is to much to ask for next time i will just say no to everyone and just get what i want to get. I get you getting stressed the hell out so iam i what yelling at me isn't going to make it any better. The good lord will take care of us i know he will im just trying to save money as well. I feel very under appreciated and it just makes me want to yell and then walk away from it. But i have my kids to think about not me they mean alot to me more than me.

The day has been long and hard

Well the day has been good today. I just once would like to see how it would feel to bring in some income in so i can make me feel very pretty and take my daughter out and get our nails done and our hair done as well. But time will tell as well but hey as least i have my family and my health. But i keep making my youtube videos and need more people who can watch it. That would make me feel a little better too. I just feel that im letting my family down and its starting to where on me and as well as my hubby too. None of our family well help us and its annoying but hey lets keep my head up and keep making video's and keep writing on my blog as well. We are just barely keeping our heads above water with the help of my hubby oldest son working. Hey i have tried to get jobs but noone will call me back I understand i don't have any work history but that is why i keep trying to get a job in the first place. But to top it off my hubby has to go to the doctor on friday in which that costs money too that we have to find and come up with so we have to sell more of our stuff just to keep a float and pay the doctor. Just once i would like to to say to my hubby i will take care of that for you.

What a day this has been

Wow this day was going good until me and hubby and daughter went to the store to pick up some food and we got to the car and i help my daughter open the back door and then it decided it didn't want to close and now my hubby has to fix it and its cold outside which makes it worse i think im thinking what else is going to happen to me and my family but i will keep a positive thinking. Its hard at times with no family living close enough to you and you can't really do anything money wise. But its almost tax time again and then i will be happy for a short time thenwe will see how i feel after word until another day. bye but not forever

Damn Men

wow i wished i had more money to get things with its hard times but i guess i will make it through adn its pissing me off every time i get up then my hubby wants to yell at me and tell me that i have stuff to and when i put my hair in a bun im trying to look pretty no im not im just tying to get the hair out of my face sorry bud kiss my pretty white ass asshole but hey i got it cleaned. Why is it that men can treat you like shit but when you do it to them they hold against you all the damn time.